One of the questions was "WHY is it so hard for me to lose weight?" Not just psychologically, but physically.
And this tied in with something that happened later on:
In the reading, he saw that I had been the wife of a Rabbi in Germany before and during WWII. We had still been early middle-age when it started, and when we were sent to the camps, one of the higher-ranking guards found me attractive for some reason. Granted, I wasn't bad looking, but in this circumstance? I was determined to fight him all the way, for my honor and my husband's.
I was denied food, even the slop the rest of the prisoners got, until I would give in. A couple of other guards basically took their lives in their hands for pity and gave me scraps when they could, and once a warm cap. These men I have met again, in this life, and we recognized each other.
So basically, I stubbornly starved myself to death.
And that seems to be why my body holds on so well to the fat -- my unconscious mind remembers that! Now, according to the literature on the subject, since I realize this and know it's not likely to happen again, the weight should start just melting off, right? Right??? HURRY UP!!!!!!